January 9, 2012

  • Frenetic World

    Today was the first day of classes. My sleep schedule had been drifting all through break, although slower than during school. In Florida, I got about an hour later ever two days. The night before I left, I packed, and then I just didn't go to bed until 4:00. I woke up an hour later to fly out to Discord's, where I didn't drift at all and went to bed around 23:00 each night. In the whole of my stay there, I might have drifted an hour total. As soon as I returned to campus though, I gained two hours right away. 23:00 Discordian is actually 1:00 the next day Eastern.

    Last night, I planned to go to bed early and wake up early for classes today. I swore off Terraria for the entirety of the first week, not to be touched again until Saturday.

    I ended up staying awake until 6:00, because as soon as I went to bed, I'd wake up and it would be "tomorrow" and I wouldn't get to play again for a week. Getting out of bed was a struggle.

    But then, as soon as I was awake, everything was exciting again! I went to four classes today. The first was Art, Love, and Beauty, which sounded a lot more interesting than it was. It turned out to be a rather dull study of the writings of famous artists, and how they felt about the three subjects. Kevin and I left about halfway through, got breakfast, and then I picked up a double major application. I attended Topics in Artificial Intelligence, where we talked about the logistics of the course, and then Professor dismissed us after half an hour of the 75-minute class. I went to the Zoo and wrote out a draft of the courses I would declare on the double-major form. I attended math senior seminar, where Professor seemed really confused by online sign-up sheets (for presentation topics), and we were also released half an hour early. I attended half an hour of Intermediate Complex Analysis.

    Then I scurried to make my meeting with my class advisor in Computer Science. It turns out that if I can get another one of my Budapest math classes to count as my linear algebra requirement for Electrical Engineering, and if two of my EECS electives count as "advanced science" credits, then I can finish a BS in math also, and if not, then I can either try to take a sixth course (here we go again), or I can just take a BA in math.

    I swung by the post office on the way back and then got online. Pesto recruited me onto his MIT Hunt team before soundly crushing me into the ground in Race for the Galaxy. I don't even know what an MIT Hunt is, or how it works, but I have until Friday to figure it out.

    It looks like I'm not having any classes on Fridays, so that's convenient.

    Things are hectic again, but I rather like the feeling of hurrying down the street with a purpose. It makes me feel like a Real Person again.

    I'm done with everything for tonight. I wish I could play Terraria again, but if I did, I'd probably be up until late, and I'm quite tired. Maybe tonight will be an early bed night. I always thought I'd just stop playing, and it would be easy, but it isn't. But even though it's early, I don't want to start up again. I've broken so many commitments to myself in the past. It feels like it would be so easy to break another one; I don't actually want to do that. If I try really hard to keep this one, maybe it will get easier in the future. Maybe I'll turn into the kind of person that has credibility with myself.

Comments (1)

  • Too bad your classes were such a crapshoot.

    Wouldn't it be wonderful to have credibility with yourself? I make tiny steps and then backslide. Time for another environment change and recommitment.

    If you are looking for topics to satisfy your daily journaling, consider writing about what you are grateful for or what your ideal self would look like. Both have support in the literature as utility-increasing if done on a semi-regular basis.

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